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My Dilemma’s

By October 4, 2021September 8th, 2023Pregnancy

So today I found out I was pregnant, believe me I am equally shocked.

I still wonder was the e-pill expired or I just misused it.

I am just 17, and I have big dreams and none of them had me getting pregnant at 17.

Is it wrong that I don’t want to be pregnant? that I can’t imagine myself getting pregnant at this moment?

For crying out loud I don’t even know if I want a family. Does this make me a bad person?

Oooh, what will my friends say, what will my parents do to me, what will the church say.

I have thought of getting an abortion but I am scared, scared of what people will say about me, what if I die, what if I never have kids again.

All this questions. When I think of keeping it, I can’t help but wonder, how will my parents respond, will I go to campus, will I accomplish my dreams?

So, I have promised God that I will not have sex again if only I could wake up tomorrow unpregnant. Does this make me a bad person?

I am seated here with my chin resting on my hand feeling like a disappointment to my family.

Author: Gladwell Muthoni